Typically, Just Complete Randomness.

Nothing Much to Say…

I haven’t posted in six? Seven  months? Something like that…Life has gone up, down, left, right…

Things were rocky with my parents….and then we found out that my sister has Cancer….cancer of the muscles. It’s been hard on all of us.  For her, chemo, and radiation, of course, are extremely difficult on her….her radiation treatment actually has given her an ulcer on her skin. I didn’t know that was possible, actually. I miss her, and I know she misses me, but I don’t know how much…She hates me for leaving her, and I can’t try to make her understand that I felt like I needed to. There was no reason for me to live with them anymore. I was depressed, and couldn’t show it, which made it worse, and I can support myself. I can’t explain to her that she was my number one priority…that her emotions were the sole focus of Anthony, Isaac and I when we were planning this. I can’t tell her I would rather take her cancer and put it in my body than watch her go through what she is going through, and try and make her believe that I mean it. I cannot explain to her that she means so much to me. She won’t believe me. I am either a liar, or I don’t care about her, or my family. It breaks my heart she thinks these things of me, but is she won’t see it herself, I cannot help her, or try and convince her otherwise.

I cooked salmon patties tonight, with dirty rice. It was actually pretty good.  I’m rather proud of myself, especially considering Anthony and Dane actually liked it….Dane being a picky eater.

Afterwards, I took a bath, and soaked in lavender bath salts….my skin is really soft now. :)

Right now I’m watching Saw IV with Anthony and Dane.  I’m not a fan of gory movies…

I get to go to Becca’s graduation. I’m so excited! she’s turned into such a beautiful woman. Remmelina and I will surely make her quite embarrassed. I look forward to it! :D

Nothing much else to talk about…I just needed to get some of the stuff about my sister off my chest I suppose. 

Regards and stained roses….

~Rose~